I’m working on thinking up a new Small Assignment, but in the mean time, I want to talk about impossible days.
Since we have gotten back from Nashville, writing has been kind of like… pulling teeth? No. Pulling teeth is kind of cliche. More like trying to catch fruit flies in a butterfly net, except not quite so whimsical. Maybe it’s been like walking through foot-deep mud – the really thick kind that clings to your boots and sucks the shoes right off of your foot. So I’m left wading through the mud with my butterfly net. Or something.
Of course, Maggie has been kind of sick since the return from Nashville, though no return of the puke-like symptoms. She just occasionally wakes up in the middle of the night whimpering “My tummy hurts.” It is both the most adorable and the most pathetic thing I’ve ever seen. We have continued the experiment of the shared room, and while it is getting better, Maggie seems to prefer sleeping on the floor right next to Beckett. When she whimpers, he wakes up. And the cycle continues.
So I’m tired. I feel like creativity is kind of leaking out of my ears. I have tried writing on the computer, in a notebook, on scratch paper, on a great big tablet with a sharpie. Most of what I keep coming up with is halting and weirdly worded, at best. Most of time I just end up doodling. I can draw a MEAN cartoon pig, let me tell you.
So here I am. Tired. Trying desperately to remember that word. You know, the one that means… that thing?
My guru Anne Lammott says we all have impossible days, and maybe even impossible weeks. During those impossible times, we need to keep on writing, even when it’s just a wet trail of snail slime.
So, here goes. Writing snail slime.
Time to strap on those boots and grab that butterfly net. I’m hunting some words.